Sunday, March 20, 2011

Are "pro-anorexia" websites really dangerous?

There is an article in the Guardian that caught my eye the other day: Vogue campaign takes on pro-anorexia websites

The Italian edition of Vogue has launched a campaign to stamp out pro-anorexia websites.

"There are thousands of these sites and blogs which don't just support this evil, but push young people into competition over their physical shape," said Franca Sozzani, Vogue Italia's editor-in-chief.

In her blog, in which she announced a petition calling for legislation to close down such sites, she said they "provide a kind of open confessional, supporting those who are unable to carry on by themselves along a road that can only lead to death".

The tragic consequences of anorexia nervosa were highlighted last November when a French model, Isabelle Caro, died at the age of 28. Caro posed for an anti-anorexia poster, in a shock photograph taken by the Italian photographer Oliviero Toscani.

The campaign is not Vogue's first initiative in the area of eating disorders. In 2009, it emerged that the editor of the British version of Vogue, Alexandra Shulman, had written to designers accusing them of sending fashion magazines ever smaller garments for photo-shoots, thus forcing them to hire models "with jutting bones and no breasts or hips".

Hm... I don't really think Vogue is in any place to comment, considering Anna Wintour hasn't had anything more sustaining than ice chips since 1979.

Also, when you consider the pandering to gay (read: enamored with the look of thin young boys) designers, fashion magazines are not going to be the ones to make the change. It will have to come from the models, straight designers, couture whores and female designers. I know it sounds homophobic, but having men who love the look of men design for women is disastrous.  It's also why eating disorders are so prevalent among young gay men, too. The expectation of perfection - jutting bones and all.

Anyway, are these sites really lethal? I don't think so. Sure, there are tips and tricks, but they really don't benefit (or destroy) anyone who is already in the grip of a mental disease. Shit like that is for the fat chicks who are looking for a crash diet before their trip to Jamaica. You can't "catch" anorexia.

On the other hand, does it encourage the ravaged to carry on down their path? Tough call. I know I hang out on a couple of sites, and am shocked by how young some of the sufferers are. 12, 13, 14... Jesus. But do they have anyone else to talk to? Is their school counselor just going to recommend ritalin, and be done with it?

There aren't enough doctors with the training to deal with ED's, or parents who give a shit. Many parents bring these diseases on in their kids by not giving them the love and attention they need. Dad left and mom works = kid is alone and scared. And lots of kids with absent/disinterest parents fall into the grips of "cults" or "gangs" that can harm them. Perhaps some of these sites are like that. But I've also seen a lot of love, too. "You are strong and beautiful" is reinforcement these kids should be getting from their parents, not from a message board. Yet there it is. When was the last time one of these girls (or boys) heard that from someone at home?

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

The worst?

The worst has to be purging so hard I pee myself. So gross, but then I think, really? You have your hand halfway down your esophagus, and a little urine offends you? Sheesh.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

TWO POUNDS!

I finally crashed through the plateau I've been struggling with, and am now down another two pounds.

My diet lately has consisted mainly of egg-white omelets with spinach, asparagus and mozzarella cheese. Total calories in one of these babies: 130. Plus I eat nonfat yogurt and mixed berries. Each bowl is about 65 cals.

Today was the weekly burn at the gym, where I put in two full hours of cardio and weights. I'm tired and I want a nap, but I know I won't sleep well tonight if I have one.

Seriously, today is a good day. I've been gaining and losing the same two pounds for weeks, and now I'm below even the "loss" weight. Wheeee!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Salt of the Earth

I need to cut sodium out of my diet, by at least 70%. I eat way too much salt and way too many cup-a-soups. My ankles are cankles, and I could easily shed 5 lbs of water weight if I skipped the salt. Even my beloved Frank's Red Hot Sauce has a lot of sodium.

I mean, let's set aside heart disease for the nonce. Clearly I'm not overly concerned about damaging my body. But the water retention? It's out of control.

Today was eating and purging.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Good Weekend

This was a good one. My boyfriend, though concerned, isn't all up in my face about what I eat or don't eat. He's kind of Manorexic himself.

Hit the gym yesterday for two solid hours. Jogged off 800 calories and did weights on a day when I only consumed 285 calories. Today I had yogurt and berries for breakfast (115), a turkey wrap for lunch (185) and half a fritatta for supper (90).

Tomorrow morning is back to the gym. I need to lose 15 lbs by end of February. That's the goal.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

The 4 lbs of Doom

I eat and gain the same four pounds over and over again, leaving me struggling to get to my goal weight. I don't understand it. I'm not eating a pound's worth of calories, and I'm sure as hell not eating FOUR pounds worth of calories.

Today is a fasting day AND a workout day, which means I'll be exhausted by the time I should be eating supper. Though I'll likely have a small blended juice from the juice bar at the gym.

I'm on antibiotics this week, and I'm told I'm supposed to take them with food. My stomach is messed up at the best of times, so I will try to obey. I just hope that a smoothie or a slice of roast turkey counts as "food."

I must remember to pick up more pseudoephedrine and more laxatives this weekend.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Note to Self

Cheesecake, brownies, mojitos, martinis and nachos DO NOT taste the same coming up as they did going down.

That is all.